Devastating News :(

by **VikkiGT4** Mon Apr 27 2015, 10:31

First topic message reminder :

Hi guys

I haven't been on for a while, took me a long time to catch up on my "hello's" to the newbies Smile

Over the last couple of weeks we've had some truly devastating news about our baby Knoxville. I'll start from the beginning.

Around 8 weeks ago he had a nosebleed whilst out for a lovely walk on the field. I put it down to him being nosey and shoving his face in all the bushes. Thought nothing more of it. Anywho, a couple of weeks later he had another nosebleed, this time after sneezing. We took him to the vets and he was booked in for blood tests the following day. Result of these came back as negative for everything they could test him for.

We were then referred to SATH in Liverpool (wonderful place). They did a CT scan and a rhinoscopy and advised us to have a radiotherapy plan done just to be safe and so that if it turned out to be a tumour they didn't have to sedate him again to take a radiotherapy plan. He had to stay overnight for two nights (broke my heart leaving him).

At the same time they decided to take a cytology of a little lump on his back that had appeared. It took a week or so for the results to come back. The cytology of the lump on his back showed he had a small carcinoma tumour which needed to be removed. We've had the tumour on his back removed and it showed clear good cells around the removal area which is great news. The issue with his nose was more serious. It was another carcinoma, quite a bad one.

We've been told that he can have radiotherapy but it's not a curable cancer and would only prolong his life. The side affects of the radiotherapy are heartbreaking and because it's his nose they cannot protect the eye meaning there is a possibility of issues with his eyes and also the possibility of having to have his eye removed Sad

I'm absolutely heartbroken. We have opted for palliative care and have been told he has 2 -3 months left. For me I just want him to be as comfortable as he possibly can in his final months with us here. I cannot put him through the stress and pain of radiotherapy just for him to have a few more months. I feel it's better for him to have a comfortable and good quality of life than a longer one, possibly without his vision and in pain from the radiotherapy.

Actually, heartbroken is an understatement to how I feel at the moment. I'm absolutely devastated.

I'm back at work today for the first time in 4 weeks and I just want to be at home with my boy.

xxx